After a day full of swimming I went upstairs to the screened in porch that was off of the room Austin and I were staying in during our Murphy family vacation in Como, Mississippi.
I took off my wet bathing suit and wrapped myself in a towel. This room held a giant porch swing that was the size of a twin bed. The sun was shining through the screen and I could hear the laughter of family members who were still having fun in the pool.
I laid there swinging without a care in the world. Just thinking about how blessed I am.
How blessed I am with such an amazing family of my own but now blessed with being a part of Austin’s family as well.
As the swing rocked back & forth I thought about the family that Austin & I are creating together. Me him & Shelby & all the memories that lie ahead.
The life I have now was only a dream years ago & now here I am living it out with a husband who makes me feel special every day & a baby on the way.
The road here has been far from easy & I’m sure there will be many bumps along the way. With our families & friends by our side I feel like we can take on whatever life throws at us.
It has taken me many years to feel supported, to feel this kind of love. To let myself soak in the love & light that is around me. To accept this life as my own and take the good in with the bad. And to stop waiting for the bad to happen & start enjoying & celebrating the good.
But let me tell you, I am so glad I did.
Life will always, always, have hard terrible parts in it. And for some it seems like that’s all life brings. But when you are always expecting the bad to come (which it inevitably will) it’s hard to focus on the good. It’s hard to celebrate the wins no matter how small they may seem at the time.
If you want love. If you want a partner to share life with. You have to be willing to accept it. To accept the love you may not think you deserve. To fully embrace it. To let it carry you away to places you only dreamt about.
I took these pictures of myself while we were on vacation. I’ve never felt more beautiful in my life. I’ve never been more accepting of myself and my body & soul.
Taking a moment to myself ,Laying on a porch swing in Mississippi, kissed by the sun, my heart felt whole.
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