Kind of anniversary
After eating last night. I had handed Shelby to Austin to start getting things ready for bed. My nighttime routine has added a couple of steps now that baby girl is here.
I refilled my waters. One by the changing table. One on the end of the counter in the kitchen. I brushed my teeth. Fed the piggies. Gathered my Haakaa lady bug milk collectors for those late night feedings. Put down the heating pad in Shelby’s bassinet. Turned on the lula-vibe that vibrates her bassinet. Turned on the White noise machine. Creating the perfect environment for us to thrive at night.
Finally finished I returned to the back room where Austin and Shelby were hanging out
There he was standing, holding our little girl against his chest while she slept. She always looks so small in his arms. My heart melts seeing his love for her. As I walk closer to them, He puts his arm around me and pulls me in. Gives me a kiss and says “I love you, happy kind of anniversary”.
It was a little past midnight making it almost exactly the time when he asked me to be his wife two years ago. Down in Nashville after seeing Katie Pruitt perform. Two years since he had planned this intimate surprise proposal and even remembered how important it was that my sister be there to capture those magical moments.
To say we have fit a lifetime in those two years would be an understatement.
So last night we shared our I love you’s and I kissed him goodnight and took Shelby to bed. (Where she slept for 6 hours. 😳 but that’s not this story but deserved some recognition)
I woke up in the morning and took Shelby to the back room to nurse her in the daylight.
On the coffee table I saw it. A note just for me.
A love letter written by my one true love.
In it he talked about my strength throughout the hardships that came with the last two years.
He acknowledged the tragedies I had previously experienced in life (before him) and this time a tragedy he saw first hand.
He spoke on what his feelings were having to see the love of his life endure such pain, while experiencing pain himself.
I have waited my whole life to feel this. To feel seen. To feel the love that makes your heart hurt in the best way.
He sees me. All of me. All the way to my core.
To have someone love me in my darkest days and to no longer have to search for the light alone is, to me, what love and life are about.
I could not ask for a better partner in life and a better father to Shelby.
He is love, he is the keeper of my heart.
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